Choices

You know when you know internally you made the right choice for yourself, and yet somehow when ready to leave the choice you made, it is harder to move forward?

That is what I am reflecting on.

I am enjoying a glass of wine in the restaurant/bar area of the Ritz Carlton downtown DC. I miss having the elegance and manners of institutions such as this one where professionalism and the nuance of polite society from which I grew up.

Let’s talk about the choice I made which I have now found hard to climb out of.

I made a financial choice so that I would have funds to take care of me enough, while I heal, study, and soul search. What I have found is that while I was focusing on my own personal development and final touches of healing, life moved forward in the world through many twists and turns. I suddenly discover that going back in the professional world seems so different and there are so many different views on how to approach the changes.

I just stopped to read an aol news clip. I am where tonight the White House Correspondents’ dinner was to take place, but there was a threat which led President Trump and other top leaders to evacuate here!

You never know what to expect next in DC and in my life. I had not been keeping up with the news as there seems to be so much each day. I have been taking a more personal take with my energy, despite my interest of knowing what is going on in DC, The United States, and elsewhere in the world.

Back to my choice I referenced earlier.

I had decided to use the cash flow I had to place toward my food, maintenance, education, as well as bills I have such as a loan and credit card. What that meant was there was no cash flow for a place for me to live. I have been floating catching a nap here and there, through I was grateful to have an empty apartment to stay in a building owned by someone who was.a friend of a friend for the depths of winter beginning just after Christmas and leaving on Easter Sunday.

As I am investigating of places where I would be inspired to live, I learned that the prices have gone up 3x the amount. Here I am receiving social security and making minimal cash flow overall through my part-time work. I was looking to develop skills in commodities and futures via my FINRA Series 3 studies. The earliest I can take that exam is in August 2026!

I am ready to work at the professional level. Admittedly I have had to heal myself in that I am not affected by sensitivities of the past.

Now I am looking on what career path would be simulating, challenging, and financially rewarding.

I am internally extremely strong. Thing is I have had to learn to better balance what is needed to fully care for and support my health and physically strength. It is like I have been tripped up by the details of self care. I have been so used to solving problems others have, that I had not always mastered the rhythm of financing good gluten free meals which are balanced and fully nutritious. I realize I am not alone on that topic. This probably happens for many others.

More recently I have not had access to washer/dryers or dry cleaners. So I have had to creatively do work-arounds. I am fastidious and cleanliness has always been important to me.

Interestingly enough, I know I am not alone in the world with these challenges. Just maybe alone in the DC area.

Perhaps it is time to wrap up this article by saying, we make choices in life that make sense at the time, but then, sometimes there are challenges one has to overcome to get to the other side of the river where abundance and growth lie waiting for us. Hope and perseverance are elements so key to our survival. That is what keeps us going despite what physically appears at that moment.

Thank you for reading. Wishing you well on your journey in life!

Addendum

The Correspondent’s Dinner was at the Washington Hilton, where there were shots heard. That hotel was where President Reagan had been shot in 1981. The reception to follow the dinner is at The Ritz Carlton downtown DC which has been occurring since I have been at the Ritz this evening.